Where goes the love that now kills?

One only clicks through cable tv stations to fill one's need for information about problems that every love relationship goes through. Here is this wife who already prepared a suicide note addressed to her family and in-laws making sure that the children are taken care of. She also mentions that she was sorry but that she had to do it because her husband has another family and has hurt her. Then finally she executed her plan to kill her spouse which she succeeded in doing for she hit him on the head. . . She then decided to shoot herself but just as she was about to pull the trigger, the security guard came along and stopped her. So she shot the guard who later on died and she is now left alive and is detained while all the many cases are being filed against her. 

We are now privy to the many facets of such a real relationship that began with a genuine love for each other. Then problems come and when one can no longer bear the pain, a decision is made: to end the life of the one loved and herself so she ends everything and quits but makes sure the children are not left without someone they can rely upon now that they, the parents, decided to end their lives.

What can elderly say about the matter? A blue moment of love which began as a white symbol of deep and undying care and concern for the beloved. Where goes the love that now kills? Can we feel for the lady who did the aforementioned and give a part of our understanding and consideration for the heinous crime she has committed? Can we just lump our judgment as totally against her for she now caused all the pain to all the parties she already wanted to apologize if she decided to go this far. For us the elderly, it will have to go through a long process of investigation, assessment, re-reading of the facts behind that we may never have access to and empathy. You see, a wife and a mother is a person who is the last one to end the life of her loved one. Her system is one who is a nurturer and a home maker she wants to remain for as long as she can manage. If she does otherwise it must be because she felt a pain too much to bear. It must be because no one close to her was sensitive enough to guide her through the pain and see some point in letting the beloved go because love is like that: let go. It must be because she feels diminished as a person, as a wife,as a mother. 

What can elderly say about the matter? A blow to one's ego as it is a challenge to accept no matter how it hurts. One way or the other, life teaches you that the worst can happen even to the most religious and well-meaning persons. After all, this life is not yet heaven.As to the question where goes the love that now kills? a question can also be worded thus:  Where comes the love that continues to love against all odds? For us the elderly, love is not love until it hurts. Any good reality in life seems to emerge after painful encounters. A wife and a mother is a person who has a heart so small yet so big to accommodate all the crosses that come her way. She uses her tears to release the angst that engulfs her entire being. Her children are enough reasons why even the most painful is bearable but is almost killing her to the bones. This mother goes out of her way to pray as often as possible. She visits the church, a prayer room where she talks with her God all the time crying and crying until there are no more tears to shed. She turns the blue to blows if only to offer all these to her God whom she believes sent His only Son to die on the cross out of love for man. She sees all the pains as even lesser in quality compared to the love given not to get something in return but for no other criterion than to love without any condition.

Through it all, where goes the love that now kills? It will soon be overcome with a love that loves unconditionally and selflessly only God knows when it finally disappears.  1 Corinthians 13:1-13 end with a fitting food for thought: "There are only three things that last: faith, hope and love but the greatest of these is love."